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The three things I stress most about:

1) Money.
2) School.
3) The future.

- I don't have a job (yet) and my dad supplies me with money on my debit card. It's sort of like an allowance. It's hard not to spend money especially if you can just simply slide your card in a machine and get anything you want. I feel really bad spending that money though, don't get me wrong. But I will tell you, when I have money... I WILL spend it. I have an addiction. It doesn't help that all of my friends go shopping like twice a week; I have to join them, obviously! I try not to spend a bunch of money on things I don't need. Recently, I over-drafted on my card and my dad told me to stop shopping. I've gone two weeks now without shopping and to be honest, I actually learned the value of a dollar. It's really hard to budget! But it makes me feel a lot better trying to save money rather than blowing it on clothes I don't even need.

- College was a huge wake up call for me. I took my first semester as a joke and now this semester, I am constantly doing homework and studying just fix my grades from the first semester. I didn't realize that college was really important and strict; I was just worried about meeting new friends, partying, and having fun. I realize now that that is the least of my worries. It's really hard to raise your grades! College is definitely not like high school... If I were to give any high school underclassman one advice for college, it would be: DO NOT SLACK OFF. NEVER EVER.

- The future scares me. It doesn't help that I am such a "last minute girl" I always always always do things at the last minute and I never plan anything (one of my biggest flaws). My dad is constantly on my tail about things and that I have to think/plan ahead about the future. I struggle a lot with doing that.

"I like being nice to people."

Over spring break, I went to the Soaring Eagle casino for the first time! I went with my boyfriend, sister, and three of my other guy friends. Overall, it was a blast! Here's why:

1. My sister drove all of us in her BMW X5 - two in front, four of us in the back. We surprisingly all fit in one vehicle. It was night time when we went and it was dark out, obviously. We took a back road (sort of like a private one-lane highway) to get there and we were talking about scary movies which got us all shaken up. Then all of a sudden a gray BAT flew in front of our car coming from out of no where while we were all screaming our heads off. I think my friend Ryan who was riding in shot gun screamed louder than me... and that's saying something. We all laughed it off but then a half hour later, my sister decides to pass TWO really slow drivers who were in front of us... but remember, it's a one lane road. She did it anyway. Everyone was holding their breath from the get-go and as we were passing, cars were coming in the opposite direction and we were all screaming AGAIN but even louder this time because we thought it was going to be the end of all of us. But thankfully, she got back into our lane just in time. We didn't laugh this one off as much...

2. An older man entered in $35 into my slot machine at the casino... I offered it back to him but he said, "No, no doll, it's fine, I like being nice to people" and sat back down in front of his slot machine. I was amazed at how nice that man was. To be honest, after that experience, it made me feel like I need to be nicer to people. It's rare that you find people like him around nowadays... How sad.

April showers bring May flowers

I just want to say that I am BEYOND excited for spring break! No, I am not bummed I am not going anywhere warm and yes, I am glad to be going home. I've been home-sick for a while now! Most of my friends and family aren't going anywhere either so it's all good :) Few reasons why I'm a happy camper:

1. People are bragging that they're going to PCB (Panama City Beach) but they don't know if it's going to be warm or not. It's the beginning of March, of course it's not going to be hot and sunny! Spring's coming baby! I checked the weather for Panama and it looks like they're going to have 60 degree weather and rain showers throughout the week. Must I say, I am glad to see that they are going to have terrible weather (awful of me, I know) but why waste hundreds of dollars going someplace that's just 20 degrees warmer than your hometown? It's not like they're going to get super tan anyway... that's what tanning beds are for, right? :)

2. I get to see all of my friends who go to different colleges because most of them are staying home too! I'm staying with my best friend (friends since 4th grade) at her house and I'm excited because her dad's a chef and I finally get to eat real food instead of crappy college cafeteria food, woohoo!

3. I miss my dog. I get to finally see the little nugget.

4. I live five minutes away from the RiverTown Crossings Mall and it's 100x better than Kalamazoo's Crossroads Mall -- guaranteed. I am going to shop til I drop.

5. I'm getting my hair re-highlighted... MUCH NEEDED!

6. No stress. No school. No problem :)

Peeves.

1) When people don't text you back right away; it takes them hours.

If we're clearly having a legit conversation and you text me back a half hour later, yes, I am going to be mad and yes, I am going to respond with only one word. Don't start up a text convo with me and take forever to respond.

2) Bad breath. Actually, bad hygiene in general.

I hate sitting in small lectures where seats are really close and you get stuck sitting by some Joe-Schmoe you don't know. Especially when the kid has really REALLY bad breath and tries to talk to you all the time. I pretend that I'm listening when really I'm holding my breath for as long as I can. The guy in front of me smells like a trashcan. Do people not take baths nowadays?

3) When people step on the back of your shoe.

You're obviously walking too close to me. Back off people! Nothing bugs me more than slow walkers and/or close walkers. If you're going to step on my shoe, you are more than welcome to buy me a new pair :)

Wrong side of the bed.

I am having an awful day.

What's on my mind right now? I'm thinkin some people just really need to get punched in the face. We're in college now; it surprises me to know the amount of people who still need some growing up to do. I am so sick and tired of being taken advantage of because I'm too caring and generous. People think they can just disrespect me and be rude just because I'm small and nice. BUT NOT ANYMORE. If you're going to treat me awfully, then don't expect me to be nice back. Where's people's respect these days? None of my friends back at home in Grandville are like this. I think it's just a Kalamazoo thing... I hate Kalamazoo. My roommate's shocked that I've never gotten wasted before....?! Uhm, I'm sorry but I like to keep things classy unlike you? You don't have to act like a child and tell everyone - because actually, people are going to look at you like you're some drunky that gets trashed every weekend. Just some advice. I am so over rude girls and their mentalities.
(I really apologize for venting.)

I'm normally a happy and sweet girl,

but when you push my last button, it's going to get ugly.

What's in your bucket?

Here's MY bucket-list!
(In no specific order)

1. Go horseback riding with my boyfriend/ husband.
2. Have a picnic on a beautiful, green hill.
3. Stand and/ or swim in an ocean. 
4. Be someone's maid-of-honor.
5. Travel to a rain forest.
6. Get a picture with a celebrity. 
7. Work at Victoria's Secret. 
8. Own 100 dresses. 
9. Have at the most two kids.
10. Watch a sunset on the beach.
11. Be an interior designer.
12. Go skinny-dipping.
13. Get my teeth professionally whitened. 
14. Feed the animals at a zoo.
15. Go to Disney World and meet all the princesses.
16. Run through a field of flowers.
17. Get my belly-button pierced. 
18. Be a bartender (part-time job.)
19. Leave the country (other than Canada...)
20. Take a picture in front of the Playboy Mansion.
21. The last one's a secret ;)

Fairytale -

It might seem as if I am always talking about the future, but why not, I mean, life is so wonderful and amazing; I cannot wait to see what's going to happen in five or ten years! Another dream of mine is to have maybe one or two kids (preferably two little girls!) so I can dress them up in cute, little brand-name clothes and spoil them to death and to also be the best mom that I can be. I want my kids to say, "Yup, that's my mom!" ...That's when I'll know I am doing something right.

The other day, I came upon a blog about a mom planning her little daughter's "fairy/ princess" themed birthday party and it inspired me so much that I want to do this for my precious princess someday! Glitter everywhere, pink fabrics and decorations, wings, wands, and tutus, fairy cupcakes -- I am obsessed! I know my daughter is going to love this party (probably when she turns three or four) because I know if my mom threw me a party like that when I was a toddler, I'd be the happiest girl ever. Party planning also interests me. I think it is just so much fun and it will also be heart-warming to see your kid happy and smiling at their party.The pictures below display the party I plan on throwing for my daughter perfectly.